Mama on the edge

There are just days, days like today, where nothing seems to be clicking along too well. On these days, I take a deep breath and just try to hold on and make it through until my husband comes home.

These days can happen for many, many reasons. I may impose stricter guidelines than usual due to a low supply of patients, lack of sleep or just being in a surly sort of mood. The kids may be tired, not feeling 100%, trying to see how far they can push me or each other, or they might just be in a surly sort of mood.

But today, as with the past few days, I have been under motivated to do much of anything. I have been feeling like I am suffocating under the cooking, cleaning, diaper changing, discipline, snotty nose wiping, refereeing, picking-up of everything that is dropped haphazardly on the floor of my life. The duties of the stay at home mom, for me these days, are difficult. There is no vacation time, no clocking out at 6:00pm, no weekend, no boss telling you at your annual review you get a raise for doing such a GREAT job. Today, this is a thankless and difficult job. Today, I feel like I want to go back to work, complete a project, be appreciated for my input. I want to work in an office with co-workers and a water cooler and I want to talk-it-up about The Apprentice, the Scott Peterson trial or anything else that happens to be going on in the world.

Today, my job at home is hard!

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