Is the Doctor in?

My husband posed the following question to me this morning at 7:30 am, after one of my moments of feeling overwhelmed; do you think you need to see someone to talk about this, like a professional?

This question and others have been resonating in my mind all morning. Do I need to seek professional help? Talk with someone besides the internet and my husband about my problems? What are my problems? Do other mothers, fathers, people feel overwhelmed? Like you just can’t get it all done? And then, struggle to find time for everything else (husband, yourself, extra of anything) and if or when you can’t find the time, find yourself getting mad, frustrated, yet I say it again…overwhelmed. Do I need a little pill to help with that?

I have come to the conclusion that no one ever said life was going to be easy. No one ever told me raising three happy, healthy, reasonably well adjusted kids was going to be a cake walk. In fact, there are moments in my day where it is much harder than I ever thought humanly possible. Do I get pushed to the brink? Yes, sometimes. Do I feel overwhelmed? Yes, sometimes. What does that really mean? It means I can’t get everything done that I want to. There in lies the problem. I want it all and I want it all perfect! I want my house clean. I want my kids to behave, not to fight and listen all the time. I want time with friends. I want time alone with my husband where we can actually connect. I want free time for myself, without guilt. Could I ever have this with three kids under the age of five? I don’t know.

What I do know is that I need to prioritize what is really important in my life and cut myself some slack for not being perfect. Today my family comes first and the fucking floors can stand in line and I need to learn be ok with that.

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